It was
down on my knees
where I found peace
I found the pleasure of surrender
I found the joy of powerless
I found the peace of submission
of myself not just to you
but to the greater than I
to the cosmos
to the life force that streams
through me
It was
down on my knees
where I found the strength
to hold on
to live on
to carry on
in spite of the past
despite the present
forever and unconditionally
loving the future
to be more
It was
down on my knees
where I learned the weight
of a collar
the sting of a flogger
and the joy of ever holler
scream
and incomprehensible thing
that escaped my lips
the kinetic energy
the feel of your finger tips
the synergy of our souls
into becoming one
It was
down on my knees
where I mended pieces
of my soul
previously disjointed
shards of my heart
sharp as glass
needing to be mended by your hands
needed to be caressed
to pick up the mess
that was me
It was
down on my knees
where I found
peace
strength
and the will to continue on
in this journey.
©2011 AFL
